Okay, so I know I have totally neglected this here blog. I am tired. (yeah i know you are tired of hearing it…new baby…four year old…husband…blah blah blah) But I am making an effort…and I need to get this out somewhere safe so that it is no longer hanging out in my brain.
There is a certain panic that comes over me when I realize I am stressed.
In our family, I am usually the one that can put a positive spin on things when they get rough. I can take a terrible situation and make it less daunting and life ending.
When I feel like I am no longer in control, and my stress takes over I have no idea how to handle it.
We are moving in a couple months. I have wanted this move for over a year. We have outgrown our current house and need more space desperately. Since Piper has been here, I feel like we are all stepping on each other all the time. I. want. this. move. BAD.
But tonight I sat and realized that I am stressed, and my first reaction is to call the whole thing off. (It is probably good Jake and I went for the courthouse wedding….haha)
So, while I really want this bigger house and I want to enjoy the process of starting this new chapter with Jake and the girls….I am change-blocking myself. Does this happen to anyone else? Please say yes.
Until next time….